Still him..

Going back to our past is the hardest part. Awhile ago I have decided read our exchange emails since 2009 it was mixed emotions and unanswered questions stills lingering on my mind... "what if we didn't parted our ways?"

Being apart more than a year now made me strong enough to face the reality and accepted the fact that even though i wanted to forget him it will still came out that "it's still him" i wanted to grow old with not because of selfishness but it's because of this unconditional love of mine. Now i'm still loving him without showing it because As I've promised to him that I will just keep this feeling of mine until in the end... He's still included with my everyday prayers asking god to keep him safe and hoping that he'll be happy with his life... seeing him happy made me feel that I'm a better person for the reason of letting him go. ALL THE BEST is all i ever wanted for him.

Living my everyday life without him develops me on where i am right now!!! I never thought i could come this far because i thought that i could never live a life without him... I always wanted to make him proud of me and i hope he is...

My life is much better now....

In the past years I've been through a lot of experiences in life... I admit i made some mistakes but it helps me to discover my capabilities, It is true that we should learn from our own mistakes !!! Having my life away from my husband thought me a lot of things as we see each other now that we've grown already in such a different way I am contented seeing him happy with his life. I never regret the day i let him go because I've also learned to love myself more.

Being single for a year now never made me feel that I'm alone because i still have our precious one! Our daughter!

Now I'm focusing my attention with my daughter to made her feel that our family is not broken i keep on telling her that even though her dad and I are not together it doesn't mean that our family is already broken. She has still someone to called mom and dad every time she needed us!